So after a few good days where you feel your getting better and starting to move forwards a bad day will hit.
Today I had a bad day! I woke up feeling strange almost feeling twitchy. I couldn't explain it or understand why. I didn't want to go out so my anxiety was up a little. After forcing myself to do the school run I came home to a sleep as I was exhausted. After Woking uo I cried...again I have no reason why, I wasnt sad, I wasn't happy just numb. So many thoughts in my head so much heartache leaking out from the depth its been hidden in.
I finished and opened the back door and let the cool fresh winter air hit me and the sun beat against my chin and just thought no accepted it was just a bad day. I suddenly felt better. I began to just sit and relax and try and believe it will get better. The day certainly seemed to get up.
Today I passed another big hurdle admitting I'm having a bad day and not coping and letting my emotions out and talking out about it instead of holding it in. Instead of sugar coating and putting a brave face on it!!
Right now I'm balanced between great things and the dark cloud that has been over my head for many years. The dark cloud shifted away slightly today and for that I shall take it as a positive day.
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