I`m Back  - well for 5mins

So what a year.. it`s not been the best. Loosing a close friend in their terms was unexpected and i will always see an empty chair when we family of friends gather. Then i lost another friend so sad as they were just taken so soon. Now they always say things happen in 3`s but im glad to say we broke that rule so far although my middle child almost came close. She has been very poorly but made me realise how fantastic my parents are and how their support and love has helped my own family pull through. I also have been ill and ended up in hospital having a back operation.....but the hardest thing was having to give up my dream job because of it.

So definately safe to say its been rough BUT with life you are constantly surviving and with great family and friends i have to say its a bit unreal of what we have achieved despite all of this.

I still managed 2 gigs at wembly and let the music simple help me party and ignore my agony  - probably didnt help my back in the long run but atleast i didnt give up.

We had ana amzing holiday in cyprus. BU above all my girls have come leaps in bounds with their school work winning many awards and all have done well in sports. My middle daughter despit being ill has manged to gain 3 belts in her karate and my youngest learnt to swim forwards/backwards and dive in the space of 10 days just to name a few. We have laughed and cried together and i`m poroud to say i have an amazing bond with my children and husband. Without it im not sure i would have survied this year. 

I guess what im thinking is despite all the doom and gloom remember there is always someone out their to hold your hand through and never be afraid to accept it. Life can be pretty lonely as well as hard but always made easier with a bit of support and lots of laughter....who cares if Joe bloggs oppisite thinks youve gone mad!!

Always carry hope in your pocket and love in your heart xx

My diet

I have finally weighed myself after Xmas/winter and I've put on a stone! A stone! Some is bot just what I've eaten I can't do the sports I love due to a very bad back injury which is helping so seeing as Sumner is coming so its time to get strict!  At the moment I'm just under 10stone so I have 2 stone to loose....here we go..

My plan is to eat a good breakfast..cereal or one slice a toast (this is good for me) with a cup of tea, lunch will be a dinner (i have children so I will cook for them and instead of eating mine I shall save it for the following days lunch) with a glass f juice and then dinner cereal and a cup of tea. For snacks I have fresh fruit or nuts and water to drink.

Day 1 has been a slight disaster as I had 3 biscuits and an extra cup of tea...but better than what I though so yay ;)

Tomorrow I have toast, curry (homemade) and porridge with rasins...wish me luck lol

Happy New year

Well 2012 has been and gone and it was wonderful except loosing my nan and then burning my hand the day after boxing day...don't ask long story!

Still now its certainly detox time now and I am starting as I mean to go on with work,a massive walk and then a swim...I can honestly say I'm all worn out!

Hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas and may 2013 bring you love and laughter...and more random posts from me ;)

Forever and a day...

So I've not blogged in well forever and a day! I am still here, me that little pixel amongst the universe. Hey...

So much has happened and not happened, after my nans funeral where you say goodbye happened but then I moved her stuff into my garage with the promise to my mum I would get rid of it..that has happened maybe because Im not ready to say goodbye...well I'm just not good at them.

What is the best way to say goodbye...is it goodbye or is it really just a see ya later?

I got a job that's awesome after being mom and I'm now following my dream...well ish until I hurt my back....

Life is so up and down and I'm only just realising that its those around you that still make it awesome even on the downs which is why its hard to let go when we are suppossed to!

Our lovely Britain

Firstly I don't post politics but after today I've had enough!

We often talk about why we think our country is great, but is.it really great now..sadly the next generation wont be and i dont blame them!

Before the war we had the rich, those that worked and the those who were deemed as what floated in the gutter. women were seen as inferior and our sons were either beaten while they were educated or beaten to work. Our daughters were left to learn the place of a wife or pimped out as sex objects to put food on the table. Diseases were rife, there was no contraception so.pregnancy was high and you were lucky to live into 20's.

Soon society realised this was wrong, we need to protect our children they are our furture so things started to change. But things don't happen quickly however, places like the Workhouses were slowly becoming a thing of the past.

But it wasn't until the war came...which is where I believe is where Britain became great. The country had to work together everyone lost loved ones and so a country mourned. Women were allowed to prove their worth and man the factories while then fought. Food was rashioned so good old home cooked food was the only option. Money was tight as it is now, but things were fixed and reused and new was only brought if truely needed.

After the war we rebuilt and grew, technology became more advanced and things were looking great... So what happened?

Our society is becoming to the point where as frightful as this sounds we will be forced back into workhouses!! Because of greed and ridiculous over spending through out the years thanks to our MP's on material assets we didn't need or should I say they didn't need. We are now to suffer was saddens me most is my children and their children will suffer more.
They do not care who you are, or your situation because you are the gutter, as long as their fat bellies are full that is all that matters. It's disgusting.  We have no work and yet are punished for it even though you are in ever so long  que for that job interview. Money taken away because your deemed useless and left without the means to buy/rent a home, or live.
The disabled and ill treated like vermin and shunted because the system no longer wants to help them, left to rot as they fall through the cracks of our system!

Mr Cameron I understand that we have to save where we can but if your so.down with us you need to re think some of your statagies. A man cannot work without a home, and he cannot work, of we no longer have the employers to employ him! A ill man cannot work until he is better. If he is too old to work, he should be cared for and thanked for all he has done over his lifetime for making this country be great!

So Mr Cameron get your hands out of the pennie jar and ask yourself this.... Why was Britain so great during the war? The answer is simple.....

People worked together!  through the good times and the bad. We had factories, creating many great imports which created jobs and a good wage!  We had enough housing to go round and good modes of transport. What do we have now? The Olympics which has taken the money in which to pay our hungry children away, just to try and pretend Britain's still great, yet we have nothing to say is ours!!

Mothers day

Being a parent is not the easiest job in the world. Your children can drive you to point of breaking and sometimes they get themselves into pickles even you aren't sure how to fix. Yet its the most rewarding and joyful of Jobs. The cuddles and hugs and the love you's and laughter brings any bad day to a bright one!

This year was hard seeing as one wonderful mother/grandparent is no longer with us. However relating fond memories, talking to family abroad and a fine roast followed my homemade lemon meringue and raspberry meringue with homemade ice cream as well as homemade cake has certainly made a would be glum day to a gloriously beautiful day.

I'm a very proud mum of 3 beautiful girls who's cuddles I recieve every day makes life all that more worth while.

Happy Mothers day to all you wonderful mums with the most amazing beautiful children. Xx

R.I.P Gran

Last week I had the heartbreaking news my grandmother had passed away. She had suffered a  stroke and was also poorly from a few other things too,  I know she is now in a better place.
My beautiful Gran is now in heaven back in the arms of the man she loved, my grandad and now my babies in heaven will have someone else to hold their tiny hands and look after them.
Although it hurts and I shall miss her every waking hour, I am grateful for all the memories I have of her and they are full of smiles, love and lots of laughter.
Tomorrow is the day we finally lay her to rest and say our goodbyes and until we meet agains.
I will always remember her beautiful smile and sparkle in her eye. Her laughter and her strength.
With her flowers I placed this poem on her card, it I hopes shows how amazing she was, how much we loved her and it just sums up how I feel.
There's magic in a Grandmother's touch, And sunshine in her smile. There's love in everything she does To make our lives worthwhile.
We can find both hope and courage Just by looking in her eyes. Her laughter is a source of joy, Her words are warm and wise.
So you see  its so very hard that today we have to say goodbye.
We shall celebrate you Gran with much laughter and maybe with a little cry
You'll never be forgotten gran, I'll just close my eyes and see, Your smiling face and feel your love And you'll be close to me.
You had such a long life, So many have so less, I know it was your time, and why the Angels came to place you with the best.
So my dear Gran, up above Although your no longer here, In my heart is where I'll keep you, and Forever, you'll still be here.

My heart is heavy, although I know you are at peace. Will love, cherish and miss you always Gran xx