Forever and a day...

So I've not blogged in well forever and a day! I am still here, me that little pixel amongst the universe. Hey...

So much has happened and not happened, after my nans funeral where you say goodbye happened but then I moved her stuff into my garage with the promise to my mum I would get rid of it..that has happened maybe because Im not ready to say goodbye...well I'm just not good at them.

What is the best way to say goodbye...is it goodbye or is it really just a see ya later?

I got a job that's awesome after being mom and I'm now following my dream...well ish until I hurt my back....

Life is so up and down and I'm only just realising that its those around you that still make it awesome even on the downs which is why its hard to let go when we are suppossed to!

Our lovely Britain

Firstly I don't post politics but after today I've had enough!

We often talk about why we think our country is great, but is.it really great now..sadly the next generation wont be and i dont blame them!

Before the war we had the rich, those that worked and the those who were deemed as what floated in the gutter. women were seen as inferior and our sons were either beaten while they were educated or beaten to work. Our daughters were left to learn the place of a wife or pimped out as sex objects to put food on the table. Diseases were rife, there was no contraception so.pregnancy was high and you were lucky to live into 20's.

Soon society realised this was wrong, we need to protect our children they are our furture so things started to change. But things don't happen quickly however, places like the Workhouses were slowly becoming a thing of the past.

But it wasn't until the war came...which is where I believe is where Britain became great. The country had to work together everyone lost loved ones and so a country mourned. Women were allowed to prove their worth and man the factories while then fought. Food was rashioned so good old home cooked food was the only option. Money was tight as it is now, but things were fixed and reused and new was only brought if truely needed.

After the war we rebuilt and grew, technology became more advanced and things were looking great... So what happened?

Our society is becoming to the point where as frightful as this sounds we will be forced back into workhouses!! Because of greed and ridiculous over spending through out the years thanks to our MP's on material assets we didn't need or should I say they didn't need. We are now to suffer was saddens me most is my children and their children will suffer more.
They do not care who you are, or your situation because you are the gutter, as long as their fat bellies are full that is all that matters. It's disgusting.  We have no work and yet are punished for it even though you are in ever so long  que for that job interview. Money taken away because your deemed useless and left without the means to buy/rent a home, or live.
The disabled and ill treated like vermin and shunted because the system no longer wants to help them, left to rot as they fall through the cracks of our system!

Mr Cameron I understand that we have to save where we can but if your so.down with us you need to re think some of your statagies. A man cannot work without a home, and he cannot work, of we no longer have the employers to employ him! A ill man cannot work until he is better. If he is too old to work, he should be cared for and thanked for all he has done over his lifetime for making this country be great!

So Mr Cameron get your hands out of the pennie jar and ask yourself this.... Why was Britain so great during the war? The answer is simple.....

People worked together!  through the good times and the bad. We had factories, creating many great imports which created jobs and a good wage!  We had enough housing to go round and good modes of transport. What do we have now? The Olympics which has taken the money in which to pay our hungry children away, just to try and pretend Britain's still great, yet we have nothing to say is ours!!

Mothers day

Being a parent is not the easiest job in the world. Your children can drive you to point of breaking and sometimes they get themselves into pickles even you aren't sure how to fix. Yet its the most rewarding and joyful of Jobs. The cuddles and hugs and the love you's and laughter brings any bad day to a bright one!

This year was hard seeing as one wonderful mother/grandparent is no longer with us. However relating fond memories, talking to family abroad and a fine roast followed my homemade lemon meringue and raspberry meringue with homemade ice cream as well as homemade cake has certainly made a would be glum day to a gloriously beautiful day.

I'm a very proud mum of 3 beautiful girls who's cuddles I recieve every day makes life all that more worth while.

Happy Mothers day to all you wonderful mums with the most amazing beautiful children. Xx

R.I.P Gran

Last week I had the heartbreaking news my grandmother had passed away. She had suffered a  stroke and was also poorly from a few other things too,  I know she is now in a better place.
My beautiful Gran is now in heaven back in the arms of the man she loved, my grandad and now my babies in heaven will have someone else to hold their tiny hands and look after them.
Although it hurts and I shall miss her every waking hour, I am grateful for all the memories I have of her and they are full of smiles, love and lots of laughter.
Tomorrow is the day we finally lay her to rest and say our goodbyes and until we meet agains.
I will always remember her beautiful smile and sparkle in her eye. Her laughter and her strength.
With her flowers I placed this poem on her card, it I hopes shows how amazing she was, how much we loved her and it just sums up how I feel.
There's magic in a Grandmother's touch, And sunshine in her smile. There's love in everything she does To make our lives worthwhile.
We can find both hope and courage Just by looking in her eyes. Her laughter is a source of joy, Her words are warm and wise.
So you see  its so very hard that today we have to say goodbye.
We shall celebrate you Gran with much laughter and maybe with a little cry
You'll never be forgotten gran, I'll just close my eyes and see, Your smiling face and feel your love And you'll be close to me.
You had such a long life, So many have so less, I know it was your time, and why the Angels came to place you with the best.
So my dear Gran, up above Although your no longer here, In my heart is where I'll keep you, and Forever, you'll still be here.

My heart is heavy, although I know you are at peace. Will love, cherish and miss you always Gran xx

Loserville with a capital L

Ok so I know I am most cetainly not the most intelligent person in the word, but I'm also not the most stupid!

Yet somehow I cannot say anything without someone adding to it or just re phrasing what I've said to make them feel they have given the solution because I'm apparently to dumb too.  I also can't seem to say anything, even when asked without having my head bitten off! I've quite frankly had enough. If I am the biggest loser from loserville who is so stupid and may as well be invisible and has no value at all, stop asking me for my opinion and don't expect to hear my voice anymore as there is not freaking point to it!  I give up :(

One completely fecked off mouse!! Humph!!

Snow

Ok ok I know I hear the groans at the back.... Snow is a pain in the bum because the world seems to stop but let's focus on the good things!

Normally we go sledding but unfortunatly because I am falling apart at the seems and have hurt my achillies tendons we couldn't participate this year... So far.

However I have to say I love the snow the place just seems beautiful as its glistens in the white glow. Plus its an excuse to be a little kid again ;)

I remember the first time I have ever seen snow. I must have been about 4 years old and I was asleep. It felt like the middle of the night when my dad excitedly awoke me, but I think it was more like 9pm. He gently awoke me and said 'look half pint, its white outside its been snowing. Want to make a snowman with daddy?'. As I nodded sleepily yes I remember being tucked into my red snow suit and having the time if my life playing with in the snow with my parents and brothers.  That was also my first memory of knowing how close we all are.  After that we still squeal at snow.

So this morning it was music to hear my lil ones squeal as they awoke to snow this morning.

As I said sledding wasn't on the menu but making a cool snowman in the garden certainly was!

Enjoy the little snow we have had this year and more we may yet recieve and remember that fun childhood well spent ;)

Allergies

Allergies are so darn annoying :(

Growing up I was pretty healthy never suffered with much well so I thought.  It's not till adulthood that I'm realising I have so many allergies! Some I have gained in adult hood like finding out I'm lactose intolerent however some I've realised I always have had them just always seemed to advoid the things that set them off, well that and my amazing parents, like my ezcema and allergy to lanolin and similar versions of it.  So why do I keep finding products that have them all in when I could advoid them when I was younger!

Or is it I'm being to think that we just put so much more of this stuff in our products to pack it out so it is cheaper to produce?!?  I know with food stuffs they always add milk proteins to pack it out, although that is a good thing for me as I can't eat all the crappy food they do this too LOL. Still its terrible to keep adding all this junk to what we eat and use every day its not right!

Lost

Does anyone ever feel they are lost. Not as in lost your can't find where your going, but as a person?

I sometimes feel I'm lost, that I'm no longer who I once was. I can't decide if this is a good or bad thing. It's an unusual feeling and one quite hard to describe.

On one hand is it because I've grown and I'm simply not the person I was years ago because of it. But then begs the question who am I now?  And why do I just see blackness when I see think of this question!

Hmmmm

Happy hump day

Hump day is upon us again...is it just me or does the weeks seem to be flying past? 

Happy birthday to my Gran as well and my friends handsome lil man who is 3 today :)

Generally in a good mood although the powers be are trying their best to turn that upside down!! 

Breastfeeding

Now someone asked me today what I thought about breastfeeding.

Now although I didn't Breastfeed my children, there is a part of me that wish I had the balls too. I was a young mum and stubborn.
Now I don't mind sittting in a cafe or anywhere public with a mother feeding her newborn child its such a natural and beautiful thing. I feel most mothers tend to cover what they can to avoid the blushing passerby anyway. Besides my parents taught me it is rude to stare!

Now that is my opinion and I respect some people don't share this, however i am a little confused about all the controversy a woman breast feeding her baby in public can make. After all it is only in the last few decades bottles were even invented. Before that Breastfeeding was pretty much how all babies were fed! When bottles first came about they were glass and generally for the rich. So even in our most prudent decades breast feeding was never frowned upon so why in the society we Live in now it can be met with distaste?  We moan how our children are becoming obese and not having a healthy diet yet we are fading out the best start to a healthy child just to save a few blushes.

Sometimes we are still a bit backwards despite moving forward in so many ways and yet its our most precious assets that suffer, our children!

Ouch!

I do not know how but I have hurt my back and, it hurts so much I think I might throw up! That's after taking painkillers too :(

Still managed to get the Sunday roast on and tidy up a bit otherwise I shall go insane as well :)

Have a wonderful Sunday all!

Me

So this is me I'm 30 soon to be 31. No I'm not bothered sharing my age as I am young at heart and always will be just have have matured and supposedly have some wisdom ;)

Im addicted to cooking, wouldn't say I was the greatest chef ever but I do enough to keep everyone around me happy. I'm finding food again after finding out I'm lactose intolerent and I must say its been a struggle, but I'm getting there.

I have a Passion for books and music and am generally quite diverse to most things. I'm a little geeky but also a bit blonde. Im more tom boy than girly and loves a challenge! I can be tough but sometimes I can still be beat, however I will always do my best to get back up gain!!

Well that's kinda me I think but if I stick to blogging you will realise there are lots of sides to me and I'm generally just random!!

My blog

Just before I start after 3 days I think I'm working around this place however I can only post using my phone lol any tips are greatly appreciated :)

Now my opening statement ;)

I am going to be honest from the start this blog will never be anything great just somewhere I can scream and shout and to mainly help me order my thoughts. If you wish to come with me on my journey you are welcome to do so, in which I salute you and say welcome aboard my crazy train :)

Oh p.s I do make some very bad typos...got to love predictive text so just bare with it lol